Dispatch from the Epicenter
by Nina Berman
A rat’s corpse lies perfectly centered on an open sidewalk reminding me that Albert Camus’s 1947 novel The Plague (La Peste) has become popular af- ter decades of obscurity. As I walk through my neighborhood, I’m attuned to everyday things which take on new meaning; the virus never far from my thoughts. I see boys playing soccer and wonder will the field still be open tomorrow. It was shut two days later.
At Columbia University where I teach, thousands of students who would have graduated were sent home packing, their fates uncertain. Some of them, who had already been given their caps and gowns for commencement, assembled for pictures. Performing graduation was better than not having it at all.
I venture downtown at night to the financial district. It’s silent and ghostly, a homeless man wrapped in a white sheet, a lone jogger. Many of the weal-thy have fled choosing to ride out the pandemic elsewhere. The emptiness feels like the weeks after September 11, but instead of ash in the air, I smell Purell on my hands.
New Yorkers live on top of each other. In Manhattan we’re stacked 72,000 people per square mile. We like it that way. Social distancing is for thesuburbs. But the virus has put us all in our little cages; alienated, anxious, our eyes stuck in our TVs and screens.
Yesterday the paramedics arrived in my building and took an old woman from the 12th floor to the hospital. Rumors and whispers, was it Covid? How could it not be? What elevator was she taken down in? Was it disinfected? Where is her family? Is she intubated?
My mind drifts back to the dark days of the 1980’s AIDS crisis and I feel intense emotional grief. That virus ripped the heart out of New York’s creative community. What will this virus do?
A few weeks in and I know two very sick people and two dead people.
Amid the wail of ambulance sirens, birds sing, intent on ushering in the promise of spring. The sound is exquisite and chilling, a perfect harmony of lifeand death.
At 5pm each day, the New York City Department of Health releases the numbers. As of April 7, 3,544 are confirmed dead from Covid19 but that doesn’t include the approximately 200 people dying at home each day who never got tested. The body count is staggering for a city of 8 million people. Meanwhile, nurses and doctors don’t have the equipment they need. The front line is collapsing laying bare decades of profiteering, corruption andnegligence.
In Central Park, dozens of white medical tents house the patient overflow from nearby Mt. Sinai hospital. Refrigerated “whisper” trucks, or mobile mor-gues, are parked outside of every hospital. Where to put all the bodies is becoming a logistical problem. This morning the governor announced grimly,that there may be no other choice but to turn the city parks into temporary grave yards.
The sirens weep and wail.